Hey guys,
how was the last month for you? Exciting. It has been a rollercoster of a month for me. On Firday i officially finished my B.A. course, however my last hour was not a great one. I had an exam. History of Revival. Agghh!!! In my last exam i could not answer any of the questions - i had revised all the wrong stuff. i did a page of work and then three quarters of the page did not answer the question. What's more i had a quote and instread of saying "infaliable pope and infaliable Bible", i said "inflammable pope and inflammable Bible". You see i now want to cry. However it's nothing to worry about i passed the module and am virtually guaranteed a 2.2. People at college have started a 'book' to see what remark i got. The optimistic Kroper said i'd get twenty five, Hazell said i'd got 10. I'm hoping for a zero.
The fact that the exam was a bad one was not something to get upset about as in the bigger picture of life i have lots to thank God for. I had an excellent week revising. I even helped Baker with some of her Greek (i actually think i would have enjoyed the Greek exam better than the History exam).
The thing that i will miss most about the college is the community that i live with. I'll especially miss the people whom i have come to regard as family. However my journey is not going to end as in September i venture forward to start work within a church. And i'll be working with Miss Gregory and Miss Baker. I once had a word spoken over my life. I was feeling very low and was looking at the guys i hang around with and i was thinking that i when we leave college i will be all alone again. Then a fellow student approached me and said "God wants me to tell you that you won't leave this place alone." I then forgot about it as it was a year ago. Then this week when i was studying with Baker and Moll... i suddenly remembered that God has ordained my future and his words were right. I'm not leaving on my own. I'm going to be with Baker and Gregory, Molineaux isn't going to be working that far from us and Ruddle, Gidney and Ette will still be at college which is going to be connected to my church.
Yesterday as we were playing croquet, Baker winning (depressing the loosing Dibbens) sang "God is good all the time," and you know what - God is good all the time, even when we cannot always see it. Sometimes we pray and pray and pray and nothing ever happens, you see answers to prayers concerning others when you pray but you yourself seen nothing. You become disheartened and complain to God.
This reminds me of the biblical story of Elijah, whom virtually commited suicide by running into the desert to die, half way into the desert he collapesed and fell to sleep. God then sent him an angel and told him to eat and drink which Elijah did, then he fell asleep again and God sent another angel with more food. Now the second meal was for the mission God had for Elijah while the first was for him himself. God took care of his needs first.
God is taking care of our needs if only we'll let him.
ps. as i am leaving college at the end of this month i am unsure of my internet availability but i will get back to blogging as soon as i can.